Day of Rest? Bah!

I'm not sure what happened...but this was not a day of rest. It started with the cat waking me up at 5:00. I got up with him, then came back to bed. But by then, my mind was full of all the things I needed to do at church - sharing time, teacher training, sharing time...all those things. I laid here for a while and pet the cat but finally I just needed to get up and get started.

So I got sharing time printed. Then got showered. Then got boys up. Left for church at 8:00. Primary room wasn't set up and I needed to set up my sharing time. Ran around and got everything copied and put together. Then church, then primary. Sharing time went well with senior primary. Not so much with junior. I think I know why and I will remember that from now on.

Oh yeah...then ward council after church that ran an extra 30 minutes. Ward conference is next week so there was a lot to discuss and Bishop never runs over, so it really wasn't that big of a deal except that I was tired! Came home and watched some football and had some lunch. Rested some this afternoon but never napped.

Finally got some inspiration for tonight's teacher meeting - an hour before the meeting. Oh...and I made brownies. From Mom's recipe. Yummmmmm! And Richard made a GF cake for John. :-) Went to the meeting. We currently have 12 teachers in primary. (Our submitted names were issued calls today though - YAYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!) Six showed up. Ok so that's half. I guess that's not too bad. But still...I'd hoped for a bit better. But...it went well. Short and sweet. Meeting was over in 30 minutes - just like I promised. Yay me.

Now the day is over and I'm exhausted. Think I'll take myself to bed. Tomorrow is laundry, playing for a memorial service and deep-cleaning John's room. I'll probably be just as tired tomorrow night. Yay for 3-day weekends!!

A Good Day...

I do love Sundays. I really do. Today was mostly relaxing and enjoyable. A very good testimony meeting. Primary went well. All of our assigned teachers were there. Cub meetings this afternoon - not so fun. But what can you do? Watched a little football, played on Richard's computer. (My laptop got the blue screen of death yesterday and won't reboot. Meh.)

The boys are playing rather nicely. I may be just about to get in my pajamas and go read for the evening. Sounds rather decadent, but tomorrow's Monday, so I should do what I can now.

On the down side, Richard's last day at work will be Wednesday. It was a seasonal/temp position and he just had too many points (for absences) for them to keep him, even though his ratings are through the roof. It's just as well. He didn't really like it and now he can apply for unemployment benefits and spend the days looking for a real job. However, we can't meet our obligations in any way at all. Not sure what to do next. Maybe sit down with the bishop and show him our actual budget and see what he says. Cut off cable? Cell phones? We have contracts on the cell phones, so I don't know about that. And TV? Really? Internet? Ack! I don't know.

But...for now...we have a roof over our heads, food in our pantry, and heat in our home. Those things I can be grateful for and rely on Heavenly Father to provide what we need - and maybe a little bit of what we want.

I'm just gonna go to work tomorrow and be thankful that I have a job. And I will be positive. I will smile.

I spent the last week really working on being more positive and smiling and such. It made a huge difference in the day, I think. That and something called Class Dojo (a techno behavioral chart for my classes.) But the smiling helped for sure. So I'll do it again. And again. And again. And again. And it'll all be okay - somehow.

New Year, New Attitude

I hope. I'm not good at resolutions. I rarely make them and if I do, I rarely keep them for very long. But I'm making two this year.

1) I will lose the weight that I lost 18 months ago and gained back (plus some) during the stress of the last year. I just know that part of my aches and pains are because of the extra poundage I'm carrying around. So...back to the diet I go. I can't afford to do Weight Watchers, but I can do My Fitness Pal which is basically the same thing minus the point system.

2) I can't control Richard's depression or general grumpiness. I can't control the politics of our principal at school or whether or not Roger actually calls the people we need in primary. What I can control is my attitude. There was a great talk today and I really picked up on that part. I can choose to have a positive attitude. I can choose to smile and be friendly and respond positively when people ask me how I'm doing. Instead of saying things like, "I'm here," or "Making it," I can say things like "Doing good" and smile.

I hope that by making these two changes, I can help the rest of my family find the joy in life. I've kinda lost that lately. It's amazing how financial worries can drag so many other things down, but there's more to life than that. As long as I can keep a roof over our heads and the heat and water going, we can manage the rest.

So...those are my resolutions. Seriously lose weight - not just the typical January 1st idea of 85,000 weight loss commercials because it's a "new year, new you" kinda thing. But because I know how much better I felt about myself and how much better I felt physically when I was 30 pounds lighter. I remember starting the school year with the plan to smile more and complain less. Then the year got a hold of me and I didn't stay with the program. This is a chance to start that over. Remember daily that I love these children. There may be days that I don't like them much, but I love them. I need to find a way to show them that - and I can start by smiling.

Happy New Year! And here we go.