It's Better to Look Up

We have turned the corner. It's just a small corner, but at least it's a corner. Richard received his unemployment award and they sent us four weeks' worth at once - two of it back pay. Yay! And they took into account Richard's previous teaching salary when making their award determination. Whew! That's something at least.

I've been picking up some Saturday school tutoring gigs and one building monitor evening gig. So that will be a little extra in the paycheck in March. AND our tax refund will be officially in our account tomorrow. So maybe we can finally get caught up and take care of some of Chris's things like a book for his college class and trip payments and AP test fees.

It feels better anyway. I had a major meltdown last Monday - cried it all out. Not the sweet, cute cry you see in movies. Oh no...not me. This was the out loud, nose-dripping, red-faced kind. The kind you don't want anyone to see. And no one did. So I share it here for all my readers. (All two of you.)

But home is feeling much better. I wish I could say the same about school. It's just awful. A constant feeling of looking over your shoulder, one can never do right, nothing is good enough, and the ever-present, "I don't really care what you're going through at home, just make sure you do everything you're supposed to do here, which includes all the extra stuff I'm assigning you just because I can." Most days it's all I can do to make myself go to work. I've taken more days off this year than ever, I think, but that doesn't really help because so often a sub doesn't pick up and then my team takes the brunt of my not being there. It's not fair, but that's the way it is. :-(

But...I'm feeling better regardless. My last few posts have been so negative that I wanted to finally write a positive one. Heavenly Father is in charge. He's watching out for me and my family. There are positives - lots of positives. That will be another post. :)