Spring Break - Ahhh!

Remember last week when I quit? Well, I quit again. But this time I did it the right way. And technically, it's Facebook's fault.

This past Saturday, I was reading everyone's status about how they're going here and going there. And we weren't going anywhere. I wasn't really feeling the "spring break love." I had thought we would spend the days spring cleaning and having fun. Do one room a day and then reward ourselves with some kind of day trip or fun activity. But I really didn't know what.

But on Saturday, that just didn't seem like a happy prospect. I was depressed. All I wanted to do was sit on my butt and play Facebook games. Then I got the idea. I'd kind of had the idea the day before, but it was just a fantasy at the time.

I found Richard reading a book in the bedroom. I interrupted him. (Why does he think he can read uninterrupted at home with four other people in the house like he can at the hangar? But that's another post....) I said, "How would you feel if I packed a bag and took off for Texas City?" He stared at me for a couple of seconds and said, "Go for it." Really?!? Yep. You deserve it, he says.

That was at 10 am. I hadn't showered or anything yet. Or maybe I had - I forget. Anyway, I still had to take James to a birthday party, so here's how the rest of the morning went. Sent Chris with James to the store for a present. Booked a hotel. Showered. (Oh yeah...guess I hadn't showered yet.) Got Richard to wrap the present. Took James to the party. Stayed and talked about school/teacher issues with the birthday boy's mom. Hugged James while no one was looking, went to the gas station and the bank then home. Packed and was out the door by 2:00. Not a bad four hours.

But the real fun is in what it did for my mood. As soon as I'd made the decision and confirmed that I could go - it was like the weight of the world lifted off my shoulders. I had energy! I was smiling! I was bouncy again! Wow!

I love my family - really I do. But I've been a really terrible mom lately. I'm just tired and it's all been too much. Not enough break and too much everything else. School's been tough, we're having some issues with one of the boys' teachers and I feel like I haven't been very helpful from my end. I get done with school and all I want to do is sit on my butt and play Facebook games. (Like how I tied the beginning into the end of this post? Pretty cool, huh?)

It's now Monday and I'm sitting in my hotel - on my butt playing Facebook games. But it's okay because I don't really have anything else that I have to do. And it's quiet and no one will bother me. It's rejuvenating. Plus - I've spent the last two days visiting with my daddy. And today, I'll be calling my niece and going out to visit her and her two kids. Maybe even see my brother and his family or my nephew and his wife and brand new baby. Dad's at work this morning anyway so I'm not ditching him.

The only thing that could make this day better would be if the sun would break through the clouds - literally. I'm feeling the sunshine again myself. I'm coming back into me. And it is completely and totally worth the price of a hotel. :-)